That's how depression hits. You wake up one morning, afraid that your going to live.
"I’m holding your demons like its a puppy
I’m petting it, trying to calm them down
they are screaming, screaming in my ears like they are mine
they are getting heavy
you don’t see that your demons are draining me
like I’m trapped in the sea,
i don’t belong in the sea
i belong in the heavens where peace is,
where i can drop all my demons,
i dropped them long ago but yours are becoming a part of me.
they are filling my patience, my sanity
they are making me fall apart but i hold them like they are mine,
i don’t want you to fall apart
ill hold your demons like they are my baby and comfort them in your weaknesses, ill hold your shortcomings like they are a teddy bear i slept with when i was a baby, ill take care of them like they are why I’m alive but baby please thank me for you draining me
draining me into this human that i can’t recognize, for dropping everything i mastered into my being, for letting you take over my soul and holding everything that destroys you."
I’m petting it, trying to calm them down
they are screaming, screaming in my ears like they are mine
they are getting heavy
you don’t see that your demons are draining me
like I’m trapped in the sea,
i don’t belong in the sea
i belong in the heavens where peace is,
where i can drop all my demons,
i dropped them long ago but yours are becoming a part of me.
they are filling my patience, my sanity
they are making me fall apart but i hold them like they are mine,
i don’t want you to fall apart
ill hold your demons like they are my baby and comfort them in your weaknesses, ill hold your shortcomings like they are a teddy bear i slept with when i was a baby, ill take care of them like they are why I’m alive but baby please thank me for you draining me
draining me into this human that i can’t recognize, for dropping everything i mastered into my being, for letting you take over my soul and holding everything that destroys you."
- your demons slowly killed me till all that was left was a smokey room (via kissesfromhelll)
"so someone asks you
how are you doing
and you want to type
i am doing fine
but you can’t finish it
because your tears have made
your eyes hazy,
you can’t see the letters
but you’ve already done it
so many times now
that you don’t need your eyes
to type the words
and so you hit send
on the message and
you are so good at
acting it out that
no one senses your lies"
how are you doing
and you want to type
i am doing fine
but you can’t finish it
because your tears have made
your eyes hazy,
you can’t see the letters
but you’ve already done it
so many times now
that you don’t need your eyes
to type the words
and so you hit send
on the message and
you are so good at
acting it out that
no one senses your lies"
-
i am fine, i wrote that without needing my eyes // @justscribbledwords
(via theprocast)(Source: justscribbledwords, via theprocast)
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